Okay. So this is my mind lately...
jenny's mind:
I need to write out these thoughts, I want to collage, I should be embroidering, I want to scrapbook in a unique way, I need to photograph this in a creative way, I'm a bad mom, my house is a mess, I have no organizaion, I need to write, can't I just finish this book?, I need to eat better, shouldn't I be out enjoying nature?, I keep stepping over things, don't pick it up..just step over, why do I keep pacing, do laundry right now, fold now, put away now, I need to be writing, nag nag nag, you should write this down, this crazy thought..get it down on paper..this feeling, this moment..do it, write a thank you note, clean the boys room, no, yes, no I don't want to, do it, embroider that idea right now, no, yes, no, cook something good tonight, I don't want to grocery shop, I don't want to cook, but I should, I should, I should.
Well, there is more..but basically these same things keep going round and round and round and round in my head everyday. Every single day. I am the type that can't do multiple things. I can't read a book with the tv on. I can't even read outside because there are birds around distracting me. I can't take care of Cedar and write too! Or do a collage too! Or embroider. And by the time she is asleep, I want to just lay in bed and not do a darn thing. She is my joy, but I don't know how to do anything else. Do I have a problem?
3 comments:
I think you're just like the rest of us...it helps me to write down a list, then I can focus on one thing to accomplish (or at least start!) and cross things off when they're finished! It helps. Soon Cedar will be able to entertain herself, also...you could let her play with some scrap materials from your projects, so she feels involved? Just an idea...try it?
i am feeling that same way these days...all the things i "should" be doing...but it's just not working out for me and this pregnancy thing. the couch is so much more appealing to me :(
You are a crack up girl. I always enjoy reading what you write just because of the way in which you write it. I'm sure you will tackle what you need to in time.
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